Whatever

Well. Lemme start from this. Saying you'll never fall in love is like saying you'll never smile. No matter how hard she tries someone will come along and make her fall for them. She knows that there are things that  she doesn't want to happen, but she has to accept. Things she doesn't want to know, but has to learn. Right? through this, you've grown up. There are a lot of people who call you by your name. But there's only 'one person' who can make it so damn special.

Day by day she thinks of him. Night by night she thinks of him. Sometimes she keeps her feelings to herself because it's hard for someone else to understand. Sometimes she smiles just to hide what she
feels inside.

She acts like she doesn't care, but it's hurt. She's hurt of pretend feeling nothing to him. She doesn't know what her feelings are doing. She keeps herself busy with things to do, but every time she pauses, she still think of him.

Does he know? she wish that she had never met him. Then there would be no need to impress him. No need to want him. No need for loving him. No need for crying over him. No need for heartbreaks. No need for pain or tears. Her head says "Who cares?" But then her heart whispers, "You do, stupid.."

And then she's trying to ask herself :

"Do I get jealous when someone seen to be too close with him? Yes. I really am. And I just like walking away from him.
Do I cry randomly when my mind thinks about him? Maybe.
Do I get angry when he tries to ignore me? Yes. I want to have a talk with him. But actually, I don't have a brave to do that. Sometimes I can't even be brave to greet him.
Do I miss him every second he's gone? Yes. Why not?

Do I love him? Oh, I don't even know what the meaning of love.
Do I have feelings? Yes. Of course I do have. I'm a human. Ain't a robot. Hehe, I'm kidding. Do I get hurt? Yes."

You may not have a perfect heart, but you are you.

So, stop being unhappy with yourself. You are perfect. Stop wishing you looked like someone else or wishing people liked you as much as they like someone else. Stop trying to get attention from those who hurt you. Stop hating yourself. Pick your head up, your tiara is falling :)) You just don't know that you are pretty amazing.
 I know that I have no idea about love. But "love" in my definition is like 'heaven' but can hurt like 'hell'. People say that we can't alive without LOVE, but I think, OXYGEN is more important. Haha, we all have choices.

Hope you see this, my friend